Don't cross that line

): That emotion explains everything.

I don't have a fucking clue what's happening. Something deep down inside me tells me it has to do with this other person. It was as though I stayed in the sweetest dream till it morphed into a haunting nightmare. You put me through unimaginable hell. I felt shattered. I've never gave up on any of my hopes, cause in my perfectly unarmed visions, I know i can work things out as always. But this time, i have my doubts. I have no idea why. I feel upset and depressed and it seems like my planned dreams had been crushed into lets say, dust and debris. And as though a strong wind came, everything just disappeared with it. I was completely lost today and I held a heavy heart for the remaining day, trying to connect the dots as well as piecing myself together. I wasn't able to shut down last night, my mind's working on something that i need to know but i don't have the answers to it. It's like I'm in need of great help, but god's not answering to my prayers. Just 2 hours of rest, and I'm up for the rest of the day. I'm feeling dead. I think I'm in need of vodka just to put me to bed peacefully, leaving all my worries and assumptions behind.

BECAUSE IT JUST SEEMS LIKE YOUR FEELING GUILTY. AND I DON'T LIKE THAT FEELING. AND DON'T LIE TO ME, CAUSE TRUST ME, I'LL FIND OUT AND YOU'LL BE MISERABLE. IT RUNS IN THE GENES, YOU'LL BE SURPRISED.

Just like kids staring at a map, completely clueless about the right path

oh, i hope...